Testimony
Focus on the Recovery Process
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Shame it is part of the human experience. It was experienced by Adam and Eve after they sinned. Abuse experienced in childhood can also lead to feelings of shame. Feeling dirty. We try and fix it. I read fairy tales with the wonderful story line of a prince coming to my rescue and removing my shame. I turned to fantasizes and a dream that someday I would be rescued. I made an idol out of human love and romantic relationships.
“(She) went after her lovers, but me she forgot,” declares the Lord. “Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her.” (Hosea 2:13b-14, NIV). Oh how tender and loving his words to me have been. He broke my unhealthy attractions by drawing me to Himself. “And I, as I am lifted up from the earth (on the cross), will attract everyone to Me” (John 12:32, The Message). God spent everything He had on me.
Jesus is the best lover I could ever have. He never tires of listening to me (He shall hear my voice, Psalm 55:17). Any experience I have, He understands because He has experienced the same feelings (He is acquainted with our grief’s, Isaiah 53:3). He provides for me. “And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:19, NKJV). He anticipates my needs. “I say this because I know what I am planning for you,” says the Lord. “I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future” (Jeremiah 29:11, New Century Version).
He is everything a woman needs in a husband. I will never have a man who loves me more. I have hope and my shame is gone.
Lynn Ashton